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I don't get why people can take so much of their energy and devote it to hatred. There are so many constructive ways to use that energy, in a positive manner.
I mean, this isn't coming from someone who has never been abused, neglected, or hurt consistently in an emotional, mental and physical manner.
This is coming from someone who was abused by an immediate family member at a very young age and is ambidextrous because I was born left handed, which was considered a sin because The Devil was also left handed. This is coming from someone who was abused by an adult that looked over me in a day care I went to during the time I was being abused constantly by my family member I just mentioned. This is coming from someone who took on constant crap by people she dated and devoted time to. This is coming from someone who's been suffering from Mental Illness since I was born and was the main target of bullying in elementary school and, when I say I was bullied, I mean I was bullied very badly.
Yet, I don't find a reason to devote so much of my time on those people. Granted, it took a while to accept what happened to me, especially from my own grandmother. I never got the closure I wanted and believe I deserved, even during her dying days. I managed to forgive, but not forget. Thankfully, it was before she died. I actually had the opportunity to prove that I was standing up and being more of an adult than her. It took me over a year to tell her I loved her, for the final time. She did something unforgivable not to me, but to her own husband in which she abused, as well. I caught her in the act, and she got caught because of me. So, basically: even though that happened, I visited her in the hospital on her birthday and brought her a chocolate milkshake. I told her I loved her for the final time and, a few days later, she died. It was odd that only her and I knew she was going to die. No one else in the family was expecting it. I thought that was rather interesting that it was me, the youngest, that knew out of everyone else.
I managed to forgive her, even though I sometimes think of those harsh times. I managed to forgive everyone else that hurt me tremendously, too.
I'd prefer spending my energy and time on positive aspects; helping other people is the main reason why I get out of bed, in the morning.
I'm human...I have my moments when I just explode and blackout. But, I don't actually devote my time to plotting against someone.
Is it that important to do so?
Story Ideas/I need an Artist to partner up with!!!
I have a huge story that's unfolding inside of my head.
It's been building up and building up for so many years...
It HAS to come out.
I'm looking for a visual artist I can partner up with.
Someone who will draw out the story, as I write it...
Someone who will give me feedback and ideas, along our journey to creating this story.
I need the constructive criticism, anyways.
I already have the characters, the plot, the twists and turns...
All I need is someone to draw it out, for me.
Message me, if you're interested!!!
Tatted and Happy!
The title pretty much explains it all. :D
I got my tattoo that I talked about the last few journal entries! It came out amazing!
I won't lie, the experience of getting my second tattoo was much different than the first.
The first time, it didn't even really hurt. It just felt like a numb, stinging feeling. It felt that way, again, when the second tattoo artist that did my second tattoo added the claw marks, too.
However, the second tattoo...I have a high pain tolerance, but I have to admit: it did hurt, a little.
Especially after getting ran over by a tractor this summer while working tobacco, I consider myself a pretty tough bitch.
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I'm getting tatted, again!!
Okay, guys! Remember my last note I wrote about Jasper and the next tattoo I was planning on getting??
I just finished working tobacco this summer (my second summer working tobacco, in a row...I'm so proud of myself!)!!
Therefore, I have money to get my second tattoo!!!
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Refreshing your memory: it's going to be of a monarch butterfly, or something resembling the monarch butterfly. It'll still be a butterfly tattoo, though!
I researched more details on the Native American legend of the butterfly reincarnation and I found a Native American symbol that means: "Butterfly: everlasting life."
I'll be getting the butterfly tattoo with the symb
Feeling Better
My mourning period has stopped.
This is, by far, the longest mourning period I've gone through in my entire life.
Too many of you, that might just be unbelievable.
Let me explain:
There is a difference between a mourning period and crying after a sad, personal subject gets brought up.
A mourning period is when you spend a segment of your life crying and not being able to feel better. You have trouble functioning in your every day life. This period is able to last for a short, or long period of time.
Crying after a sad, personal subject getting brought up isn't the same as mourning. Let's face it: everyone cries every now and then, right?
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People are generally mean spirited in nature and quite a few of them it seems take it beyond that to a level of flat out hatred...It's ugly, I know and it's sad too. The world would be such a better place with just a bit of understanding sprinkled in.